Sometimes, I think how I go back and forth questioning myself and my worth because I don’t have a guy to go out with and hang out with all the time like others around me. It can make you feel left out and sort of doubt yourself when everyone is dating except you. When I start to feel weird in that sense, I just talk to God about how I feel, and ask him to cover me in his love.
Recently, I was sitting in church on Sunday after having felt that way the night before. I was thinking about how cool my pastor is who was preaching on the movie Furious 7, but tied it to the Word of God as usual.
I thought about how years ago before I began to go to my current church. My prayer partner and I were praying on the phone and she was prophesying about me being at a church where I thought the pastor was real cool! Well, the Lord brought that to pass. God used that small thing to remind me that he has always led me concerning my life and the things that I’ve needed and desired.
When I left my old church, I had prayed to God about where to go next, and the Lord let me know that the church that I would go to would be having a prayer event. I continued to visit friends and family’s churches looking for a church where the Word of God was taught in an uncompromising manner and they were serious about God, and when I visited my current church they had everything that I was looking for plus the confirmation of the prayer event.
The church was preparing for their Labor Day prayer event at that time. I knew then that was the church for me. Just how God led me to the right church and in countless other areas of my life, he was reminding me that he was strong enough to lead me to the spouse that I desired.
It was as if God was saying haven’t I always led you? Have I steered you wrong yet? Haven’t you followed me all this time? What makes you think that I cannot lead you when it comes to your husband? You have to get your faith up in that area and trust me.
Unfortunately, as human beings sometimes our human nature can cause our faith to go up and down based on what is going on around us, but if we continue to keep our eyes on Jesus and our trust in him, we will see all that we are believing him for come to pass.
I’m reading now in Nehemiah Chapter 8. It is showing how the children of Israel are returning to the Lord out of exile. They had lost their identity in what was going on around them taking on the culture of the other nations that were around them instead of being who God called them to be.
If we are not careful, we will do like the children of Israel and allow ourselves to become something other than what God intended for watching others around us; instead of keeping our eyes on Christ.
He is our leader and the one who is capable of getting us to our promised land whatever that promised land may be that we are believing God for. Our responsibility is not to worry nor try to figure things out on our own, but to trust in the Lord.
When we trust in the Lord, God’s peace becomes the trade-in for giving God our worries and anxieties[i]. When we are trusting in the Lord, we no longer move out of our anxiety or fear but we give those worries to the Lord trusting that he will exalt us in due season[ii].
When we trust in the Lord, we as women do not take on the male role as far as trying to force a relationship, but we give it to God and trust that he will put us together with our spouse at the appropriate time, and we will not have to force it nor manipulate it. All we will have to do is be ourselves in Christ as we watch God work.
The Children of Israel in Nehemiah chapters 8 & 9 are returning to the Lord, and as they are doing so they are remembering their history with God and their identity which is tied to who God is.
They are recounting how God was with their fathers in the wilderness leading them with a cloud by day and fire by night. They recalled how God called Abraham to move from the land of Ur into a land that he did not know based on a promise that a nation would come from him and have their own land. That nation was the children of Israel in Nehemiah who were reminiscing on their history in God.
That history basically shows that God is trustworthy. Therefore, with God being trustworthy we are to continue to put our trust in him. I have a history with the Lord. All of us who are in Christ have a history with the Lord. Allow, the Lord in your season of singleness, to remind you of your history with him and the things that he has done, and shown you and bought to pass. Allow him to remind you how he has led you and your family in various ways being faithful. These things will encourage you as you wait on the Lord with your trust in him.
Like the children of Israel we don’t have to get off track, and find ourselves making our way back to the Lord to find our identity in Christ again after making a choice that God did not ordain to try and fit in with everyone else. We can continue to trust in the Lord and allow him to work things together on our behalf.
He will begin to cover you in his love and affirmation filling every void. Lastly, the Lord confirmed what he had spoken to me at church. Later, two songs on my Pandora came on that really ministered to me because they reminded me of things that God had recently said. More specifically, Smokey Norful, “In The Middle.” That song talks about how through various things we have gone through, God has always been in the middle of them, and the other one is Kari Jobe, “Beloved.” Beloved is a song that reminds me that I am loved by God and worth him taking the time to speak to me to re-affirm me and continue to cover me allowing me to rest in him as I trust in him. Enjoy the two songs below:
[i] Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7
[ii] Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7
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